TheLogImusPrime-unban request(2)

[TheLogImusPrime]

Steam Name (Current): TheLogImusPrime

Steam Name (During incident):

Steam ID: STEAM_0:1:104945788

Steam Profile Link: i dont actually know how to link this. unfortunate!

Name of staff you were banned by: 26

Length of the ban: Perma

Would you like your ban shortened or repealed?: Repealed

Reason for ban: "repeated harassment, targeting (rdm), multiple warnings to stop and doesnt listen. brass said perma"

Did you commit the actions stated in the ban reason?: Yes

What really happened?: I harrassed and RDMd multiple people multiple times and continued despite a few warnings(including a week ban, iirc). The ban reason is pretty much correct.

Additional details: Copypasting the majority of this from the first unban request I made over 2 years ago. Its been coming up on 3 years since the original ban and I would like to think I'm less of a wanker now than I was at that time. Not much else for me to say other than "its been a while," and I can only hope that wounds heal with time in this case.

Here is the original unban request in case you don't remember me(if you don't, lucky you tbh), the replies there should fill you in: https://forerunnergaming.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=10475

[TheLogImusPrime]

Just gonna make a follow up to this, because I kinda half-assed the initial post. I copied it from my first unban appeal because the circumstances behind the ban are exactly the same, but I think that(combined with the attitude I had about the ban when it first happened) gave people the impression that I don't care about this at all and fully expect to be unbanned regardless of effort. This isn't true. I'm just not good at writing when it comes to things like this, and the attitude towards the ban was a combination of a poor attempt at a joke and the aforementioned "not good at writing" thing. It came off as being disillusioned with reality, which was not really how I meant it initially but I kept up the attitude until that was how I meant it.  That is really all I have to say to defend myself.

Also, I want to take some time to reflect on various things I did that I remember(remembering a lot of this was painful and made me cringe) in the form of airing out my own dirty laundry.

-Having Karma above 800 was an actual rarity for me on some days.
-Chronic Rock abuser(I believe I put one into a Durin's at one point, which should let you know just how bad it could get), and by "abuser" I mean "randomly throw rocks at people on Inno rounds." This amused me despite pissing off damn near everyone else in the server, and I think I remember it getting so bad I banned myself from using it because even 2022 me, actual black hole where self awareness went to die, could recognize that that shit got out of hand.
-Haven't seen anyone mention this but it makes me cringe and I was told repeatedly to not do it, but using Allegiance mines to set traps on Inno rounds was something I did often. This is KOSable, and lead to more team kills and enemy kills, and almost all kills gotten this way(barring the exceptionally rare situations where I knew I was the last Inno alive) were RDM.
-I had a bone to pick with the Speedster and anyone using it. Why? I genuinely could not tell you, the weapon mildly annoyed me and I believe I channeled this primarily by RDMing people who ran into me with it.
-I had a bone to pick with Divine. I no longer remember why(it was certainly something stupid), but the name sticks with me even now as like, the person I wronged the most out of anyone. This, like the Rock thing, was something that got so out of hand even 2022 me recognized it as an issue.

There is a reason I said in the initial post that if you don't remember me, it is probably for the best. I was generally pretty unfun to play with, and looking back on how I conducted myself makes me cringe and also wonder how the hell I didn't get banned sooner. It has been nearly 3 years since the ban and I would like to think that I have matured as a person and a player, and this ban appeal is ultimately asking the many people I pissed off to also believe that I have matured. If you have read what I have posted now and in the past and believe there is not a snowball's chance in hell that this guy would ever change his ways, I can't blame you. If you believe that there is a chance I have changed, I thank you for your forgiveness. I wanted to post some of the stupid shit I remember doing(obviously not all of it, my memory isn't the best, and I did a lot of stupid shit) to offer both transparency regarding what I did wrong for anyone who wants me to stay gone and as a way to "prove" that I am capable of self reflection and seeing that I did many things wrong, in an attempt to beg forgiveness. Regardless, I would like to apologize to the people that I wronged in the past, to the mods whose time I wasted, and also to anyone who just didn't like me, because you probably had good reason. I fucked up a lot of things in the past and while I am not sure making amends is even possible, I would like to try.

If you have any questions on the appeal, a bone to pick with me, or just want to know how Shockweave works(basically the only thing anyone pinged me for after I got banned), I am still in the discord, so feel free to ping me.

Sincerely
-TheLogImusPrime