(09-21-2018, 10:13 PM)2koreds Wrote: . . . There are certain people with whom I have provided video evidence to unpoke about excessively toxic behavior and harrassing me in general previously(Keep in mind I am recording 95% of the time I am playing on Garrys Mod via Shadowplay). As a result of their behavior towards myself I leave them blocked, and when rdm happens I just don't forgive because that person has harassed me previously or is generally unkind, and has made my experience on FRG unenjoyable and honestly horrible overall as result.
These people also most likely have either been antagonized by you at some point in time, harassed by you at some point in time, or have had to deal with your toxic behavior before and are reacting the same way to you as you once treated them.
(09-21-2018, 10:13 PM)2koreds Wrote: I absolutely understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, this isn't fully the appropriate behavior on my part, but when I provide solid evidence of certain players telling me to kill myself IRL or saying things equally as bad and meaning it with full intent and not as a joke, I won't forgive them or unblock them. I have tried unblocking some players, and their behavior has not changed towards me even though I do not interract with them. I have actually just before this application purged my block list and haven't had to re-add anyone to it yet. I have since then been on the receiving end of some pretty offensive insults, but am trying to give these people a chance even though they're showing their true colors still.
These are colors that you caused by yourself for the most part you can't just expect the toxicity you pulled in the past is just going to vanish and the people who experienced that toxicity to just forget it. Its up to you to either try to change their opinion with (at times) hard work or to just ignore them and the origin of this issue. Your insistence that you understand where we are coming from and then refer to others responses to you as "True Colors" is conflicting depending on the person (I am not going to lie here I am toxic to everyone its a miracle I even got member).
(09-21-2018, 10:13 PM)2koreds Wrote: A lot of the people who are leaving the -1's are the same people as before, and like I mentioned they either haven't played with me in a very long time or I've had them blocked and simply don't interact with them for fear of being insulted and belittled again. If you are one of these people and you are unblocked try interacting with me like a normal human being next time you see me on, I'm sure you'll be surprised at the response/behavior. I am absolutely working hard to change the views people have of me and the behavior I use while on FRG, but if someone is constantly belittling you, insulting you, or making your experience miserable, can you really blame someone for having a chip on their shoulder against them? I've cleaned up my block list in order to try and give some of the people I am referring to an additional chance, and many of them are people who have left -1's on this application. I implore those of you within whom I am referring to give me another chance as I am doing for you, and keep in mind the language conveyed if we do interract. That is all. 
I believe there is an adage that goes "you reap what you sow." this sums up everything you have been complaining about, you caused the problems you are now dealing with as the older players that have had to deal with the toxic side of you straight up dislike you and are going to be toxic towards you. If you want those -1's to turn to either +0 or +1's you actually need to convince people who you have either wronged or been toxic to in the past that you have changed and from the little I have seen of you since I rejoined its been mostly you ignore the people that you have done such things to as they respond in kind. For as much as I dislike the bible I think a line from it sums up how you should be dealing with this issue Luke 6:31 "Do to others as you would have them do to you."
