Posts: 177
Threads: 25
Joined: Dec 2014
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Time Played: 2,519.37 Hours
Level: 399
Rounds Played: 39,150
To start off, when I first heard of this post my mind, like many others I'm sure, had gone to 'no way in hell would I want someone this toxic back into the community.' Their toxic actions had been some of the worst experienced by this server to date; lines that have been crossed too far. From what you are saying, I can understand that you were not happy with the way some people had been toxic towards a certain group you associate with. However, responding with even more toxicity is not the right way to go about things, as you realized. And the fact that you realized, to a degree, that your actions were wrong is a good step in seeking forgiveness from those you affected. But even with that being said, I still don't feel like you have realized the full extent of your actions.
Another problem you could be facing is the fact that people don't believe you have changed. That you're just doing this out of boredom. Which leads me to ask why you want to come here? What exactly do you hope to get from coming back to this server? And if you are able to come back, you should ask yourself if this server is even good for you to be on. Like would being on do more harm than good to you mentally?
Personally, I think you should write an in-depth apology to those you affected the most before being considered to be unbanned. As of right now, I lean more toward not having you unbanned. As much I can sympathize with some of the stuff you have been through and am happy that you have received the help you needed, it is not enough for me at this point.