12-22-2019, 06:08 AM
There is no fucking way I'm alone on this. There has to be at least ONE other self aware gambler on this fucking server.
I have a problem and it keeps showing it's disgusting face in the form of a 50/50 addiction. I hate it and I don't want it.
Oh what's that I finally grinded up 50k? Wow that's halfway to 100k! If I just win a 50/50 I'll get there and then bank it.
Then 1 of 2 things happen. 1 I win and get 100k. So it stops there then? No because then I gamble that as well "Wow 200k is better than 100k".
Or 2 I lose and I think "Man I must get that 50k back that was a dumb gamble" so I take from my stashed coins. And I lose and I lose and I lose.
Over and over. It's a vicious cycle and I personally really struggle to break out of it. No high is ever good enough and every low leaves me more and more depressed.
I know to a non-addict this just sounds retarded. "Just quit you retard" and I do quit. For a day maybe 2. But then you get that feeling that you could have more, that you could double it all.
And It grows and it grows and it grows. It doesn't stop and it consumes you. I hate it and I don't want that looming presence when I'm just trying to have fun.
50/50 is toxic for people like me, and I just need to know if I am alone in this or if there are other people like me here.
I want a ban system for the 50/50 so that people like me don't have to get that itch anymore. It wasn't an issue prior to the implementation of the system and I want to go back to those days.
It really is wearing on me and I hate it.
I have a problem and it keeps showing it's disgusting face in the form of a 50/50 addiction. I hate it and I don't want it.
Oh what's that I finally grinded up 50k? Wow that's halfway to 100k! If I just win a 50/50 I'll get there and then bank it.
Then 1 of 2 things happen. 1 I win and get 100k. So it stops there then? No because then I gamble that as well "Wow 200k is better than 100k".
Or 2 I lose and I think "Man I must get that 50k back that was a dumb gamble" so I take from my stashed coins. And I lose and I lose and I lose.
Over and over. It's a vicious cycle and I personally really struggle to break out of it. No high is ever good enough and every low leaves me more and more depressed.
I know to a non-addict this just sounds retarded. "Just quit you retard" and I do quit. For a day maybe 2. But then you get that feeling that you could have more, that you could double it all.
And It grows and it grows and it grows. It doesn't stop and it consumes you. I hate it and I don't want that looming presence when I'm just trying to have fun.
50/50 is toxic for people like me, and I just need to know if I am alone in this or if there are other people like me here.
I want a ban system for the 50/50 so that people like me don't have to get that itch anymore. It wasn't an issue prior to the implementation of the system and I want to go back to those days.
It really is wearing on me and I hate it.
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