Steam Name (Current): Merlyn’s Willy
Steam Name (During incident): Daniel
Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:42863376
Steam Profile Link: http://steamcommunity.com/id/memeking2014
Name of staff you were banned by: Brassx
Length of the ban: Permanent IP Ban.
Would you like your ban shortened or repealed?: Either works, but would obviously prefer repealed
Reason for ban: “Had a chance to be mature about the demotion. Instead decided to be immature. No longer welcome here.”, more specifically constant drama causing, toxixity, and then at the end massive disrespect towards the entire server.
Did you commit the actions stated in the ban reason?: Yes I did.
What really happened?: As an admin I was targeting specific players that I disliked and purposely attempted to upset them and ruin their time on the server. For my behavior I was then demoted after numerous warnings, and I did not react well to being this and I snapped and began to massively disrespect everyone on the server and the server’s existence as a whole. I continued to “try and get revenge” for my own actions until I was ipbanned and I was told that any further harassment would result in legal action. Pretty much I threw a tantrum and acted like a child, and got what I deserved.
Additional details: At this point it has been over a year and a half since I was banned, and over half a year since my last appeal. Everytime that I appeal I feel like I have grown more and more as an individual (honestly I know for a fact I’ve grown) and have done everything I can to fix the relations on this server that I ruined, and still am doing all I can. After my actions on this server, it really hit me that I was not in the right mental state and my general attitude towards life and other people did nothing more than hurt myself and others and I was not an enjoyable person to be around. I spent a lot of time heavily focusing upon my mental health and doing whatever I possibly could to be a better person, so that I could guarentee that side of me that showed in 2016 never exists again. My actions towards the end of my time on this server were entirely unexcusable and I have no defense towards it. But I do have immense remorse and guilt for what I did here and the pain that I caused people as well as the friendships I ruined, and it truly fuels me everyday to do the best I can to be a good person.
I’ve said this dozens of times, but I am more sorry for what I did here than anything else that I’ve done in my life. I regret it more than anything. You guys molded me as an individual and taught me so much and I appreciate it more than you can imagine, which is why I hold so much guilt for the issues I created. You deserved better, especially from someone in the position I was in, and I wish I could have given you better. The past is in the past though, and I am a firm believer that it is best to focus on the future rather.
A lot of you probably wonder why I even want to be unbanned at this point, as likely no one is the exact same person they were 2 years ago and I wouldn’t be coming back to the same place. My answer to that is the fact that this server is the only place on Garry’s Mod that ever brought me pure joy. Sure, it has changed tremendously, but a lot of the people I knew when I was part of this community are still here and I still consider my friends, and I want nothing more than to revive those friendships and to show everyone here what I am like as a person now, in comparison to how I was then.
I’ve waited specifically for today to appeal again, as it is my 18th birthday today which “officially makes me an adult” and therefore I feel like it is a chance for me to refresh and show you guys that I am not the childish 16 year old I was, and that I am someone that you all would genuinely enjoy being around given the chance. (I understand that turning 18 really means nothing in maturity and you don’t just suddenly become a mature adult because you’re 18 lol, I just feel I have moved on from the childish antics that followed me through the last few years. The only reason I’m appealing specifically today is because I set it as the waiting point for the next time I attempt to appeal). I truly want to come back and enjoy playing Garry’s Mod (something I havent done in forever at this point) and reconnect with old friends.
I would never, ever, ever cause a problem here again, and while my word likely does not mean too much, I do give you my word on that, and those of you who have stayed in contact with me through this time know that I would rather die than cause anyone as much distress and anger and drama as I once did. I strongly believe that I am a new and refined person that would create nothing but a positive impact for FRG in the future, just by simply playing and contributing to the communities ideas and efforts. I know for a fact that I will never recieve a rank here again if I do get unbanned, and I entirely respect that and it makes absolute sense. I just want to come back so bad, even if it means I must be constantly watched, resticted, or whatever it takes. It’s been a long time, and with all that, I hope more than anything that I can recieve the chance to prove to you all that what I’m typing out right now isn’t just some fake bullshit, but instead is in honestly from the buttom of my heart.
Please feel free to ask me any questions and I’ll happily give you the answers. I appreciate the opportunity to appeal, and hopefully I’ll get to see you guys on the server someday. I really miss you guys.
Thank you.
(For anyone who has no idea what I did, please check this thread: http://forerunnergaming.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=4478)
Steam Name (During incident): Daniel
Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:42863376
Steam Profile Link: http://steamcommunity.com/id/memeking2014
Name of staff you were banned by: Brassx
Length of the ban: Permanent IP Ban.
Would you like your ban shortened or repealed?: Either works, but would obviously prefer repealed
Reason for ban: “Had a chance to be mature about the demotion. Instead decided to be immature. No longer welcome here.”, more specifically constant drama causing, toxixity, and then at the end massive disrespect towards the entire server.
Did you commit the actions stated in the ban reason?: Yes I did.
What really happened?: As an admin I was targeting specific players that I disliked and purposely attempted to upset them and ruin their time on the server. For my behavior I was then demoted after numerous warnings, and I did not react well to being this and I snapped and began to massively disrespect everyone on the server and the server’s existence as a whole. I continued to “try and get revenge” for my own actions until I was ipbanned and I was told that any further harassment would result in legal action. Pretty much I threw a tantrum and acted like a child, and got what I deserved.
Additional details: At this point it has been over a year and a half since I was banned, and over half a year since my last appeal. Everytime that I appeal I feel like I have grown more and more as an individual (honestly I know for a fact I’ve grown) and have done everything I can to fix the relations on this server that I ruined, and still am doing all I can. After my actions on this server, it really hit me that I was not in the right mental state and my general attitude towards life and other people did nothing more than hurt myself and others and I was not an enjoyable person to be around. I spent a lot of time heavily focusing upon my mental health and doing whatever I possibly could to be a better person, so that I could guarentee that side of me that showed in 2016 never exists again. My actions towards the end of my time on this server were entirely unexcusable and I have no defense towards it. But I do have immense remorse and guilt for what I did here and the pain that I caused people as well as the friendships I ruined, and it truly fuels me everyday to do the best I can to be a good person.
I’ve said this dozens of times, but I am more sorry for what I did here than anything else that I’ve done in my life. I regret it more than anything. You guys molded me as an individual and taught me so much and I appreciate it more than you can imagine, which is why I hold so much guilt for the issues I created. You deserved better, especially from someone in the position I was in, and I wish I could have given you better. The past is in the past though, and I am a firm believer that it is best to focus on the future rather.
A lot of you probably wonder why I even want to be unbanned at this point, as likely no one is the exact same person they were 2 years ago and I wouldn’t be coming back to the same place. My answer to that is the fact that this server is the only place on Garry’s Mod that ever brought me pure joy. Sure, it has changed tremendously, but a lot of the people I knew when I was part of this community are still here and I still consider my friends, and I want nothing more than to revive those friendships and to show everyone here what I am like as a person now, in comparison to how I was then.
I’ve waited specifically for today to appeal again, as it is my 18th birthday today which “officially makes me an adult” and therefore I feel like it is a chance for me to refresh and show you guys that I am not the childish 16 year old I was, and that I am someone that you all would genuinely enjoy being around given the chance. (I understand that turning 18 really means nothing in maturity and you don’t just suddenly become a mature adult because you’re 18 lol, I just feel I have moved on from the childish antics that followed me through the last few years. The only reason I’m appealing specifically today is because I set it as the waiting point for the next time I attempt to appeal). I truly want to come back and enjoy playing Garry’s Mod (something I havent done in forever at this point) and reconnect with old friends.
I would never, ever, ever cause a problem here again, and while my word likely does not mean too much, I do give you my word on that, and those of you who have stayed in contact with me through this time know that I would rather die than cause anyone as much distress and anger and drama as I once did. I strongly believe that I am a new and refined person that would create nothing but a positive impact for FRG in the future, just by simply playing and contributing to the communities ideas and efforts. I know for a fact that I will never recieve a rank here again if I do get unbanned, and I entirely respect that and it makes absolute sense. I just want to come back so bad, even if it means I must be constantly watched, resticted, or whatever it takes. It’s been a long time, and with all that, I hope more than anything that I can recieve the chance to prove to you all that what I’m typing out right now isn’t just some fake bullshit, but instead is in honestly from the buttom of my heart.
Please feel free to ask me any questions and I’ll happily give you the answers. I appreciate the opportunity to appeal, and hopefully I’ll get to see you guys on the server someday. I really miss you guys.
Thank you.
(For anyone who has no idea what I did, please check this thread: http://forerunnergaming.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=4478)